Sunday, November 28, 2010
Cowboy Bebop vs. Ernest Hemingway; Harry dies, Spike Lives.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Sister Selma
Really funny Brazilian Nun. (I did the sub titles)
She tells a joke...and then you laugh...got it?
Watch here
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Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Today's Haiku
Ima take my head off
just pop it like a ken doll's
Ima breathing torso
Jan 9 2012
Sitting with a pen
the writing is strange tonight
just too much star trek?
Jan 3 2012
The first day of class
just the same old chairs
with no back support
Jan 2 2012
The Facts are just a
Lack of imagination
so face the fiction
Aug 23, 2011 Sunset
Summer sweet summer
inevitably ends
and so it grows cold
Jan 19, 2011 Girl and Boy
When she was a girl
Her hair smelled like red fruit loops
and I was a boy
Jan 12, 2011; To Sherylee-
Surgely magurg
Uncle Harold, Grandpa Joe
Well whats in a name
Jan 10, 2011; Notes from English 6240; Literary Criticism.
Laboratory Lit
I'd rather be Jane Goodall
Just live with the Chimps.
Jan 9, 2011
So it's a new year
and so it's back to the books
and back to Haiku
November 29, 2010 Ani Difranco Adaptaion
Laughed until we cried
because the world is absurd
beautiful and small
November 28, 2010 Just some Bebop
Time spent with cartoons
when there's homework to be done
never been so sweet
November 27, 2010 - For her
Just some cheap flowers
But the best that I could do
and so she thanked me
November 26, 2010 - Holidays
It's far too early
Uncle Shaun will you wake up?
Lego Starwars? Yeah
November 25, 2010 - Thanks Giving
Grandma bakes all day
to see her son hold his son
as she once held him.
November 24, 2010 - Computer Age
Why is this marked spam?
Why's it all in Japanese
Writers should write books.
November 23, 2001 - Winter Again
Women of the Favela Part 5; Eliane and Aliane
Monday, November 22, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Her Twilight Years; Tales of a Granny Vampire. Part 3, "Friends and Enemies"
“Besides you always wear your nice sweaters and the bloodstains are terrible, if you had something in a washable polyester…”
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Women of the Favela Part 4: Ann and the Orphanage
After a few weeks in Perus, my companion and I decided to volunteer at a local orphanage. Ann, a member of our congregation, worked part time as an orphanage administrator. The first time we visited we schemed up a surprise party. Without telling Ann we went door to door on the east hill gathering used toys. We wrapped them and bought the ingredients to make a huge birthday cake. As we opened the door to the orphanage, I realized our mistake. The large house overflowed with toys. Toys lined the tiled halls and clumped in corners. The metal cupboards were bursting with bags of beans, rice, and sweets.
“Everyone sends toys,” Ann explained, “Everyone gives food and candy to orphans. We’re funded by three separate American charities. You can bake your cake, but do it with the kids. That’s what they need. Someone to be with them, to talk to them, to ask them their names.”
She was right. The kids didn’t look twice at the toys we’d brought. Instead they grabbed our ties and made us chase them around the house. My companion stood on his head. I did a cartwheel and banged my foot on a windowsill. The children were hard to understand, they talked so quickly, but I tried to listen and catch their names. The tall girl with short hair is Marilyn. Tiago and his brother Rico are the oldest. The three little boys are all named José so they go by Ninja, Cotóco, and Pequeno. The little girls giggled too much to tell me their names. The serious one, in the red tank top, the one who only laughed when I banged my foot and only smiled for the picture is João. (Photo 5 Orphanage)
As the cake baked, Ann leaned against the old sink and told us about the problems facing the orphanage.
“We have enough funding,” she explained, “what we don’t have is someone who can do the work, who can actually care for the children. There are six of us working here, I come almost every day, but no one lives here full-time. I try to be a Mom to the kids as much as I can, but I have four children at home that need mothering.
“The children come to us at different times, for different reasons, mostly without any documentation. We think João was five when he came, but were not sure how old he really is. He came alone, with nothing but the clothes on his back, he wouldn’t tell us where he came from, or who his parents were. He just showed up. Seven years later all we really know about him is that his name is João and his favorite color is red.”
The administrators have a hard time finding openings for the orphans at school. A child from a wealthier family, or with connections like Luã, could enter school at five. But the orphanage lacked organization and connections. Of the twenty-seven children, twelve were school age but only seven attended. The others waited.
As she spoke, Cotóco came crying into the kitchen. Ann picked him up and explained; “Each year we put the kids on a waiting list. If there are no openings then they move up in priority for the next year, but some of them are set to enter first grade at age eight or even nine. They won’t graduate until they are nineteen or twenty.”
But graduation is an unlikely dream. Since the orphans have to leave the orphanage at eighteen, they will inevitably have to quit school and seek work.
“But these kids are lucky,” Ann almost laughed, “there are a lot worse places a kid could end up. There are…”
I held up my hand to stop her. I wasn’t ready to hear details about inner-city child trafficking. The orphanage was disturbing enough.
We ate the cake, João smiled for the picture, and then we left. We went back almost every week trying to give each child as much attention as we could. I was always expected to do cartwheels.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
After...
“The present is infinitely fleeting. We live our lives in the moments after.”
-Lia Rae Markins
He lay naked in his mother’s arms, on the damp hospital bed
Surrounded by smiling faces
His breath came in gasps
Tiny mouth open like a fish’s
His skin was warm, wrinkled, and red.
She raised his head
The light shone on his closed eyelids
His arms twitched uncontrollably
His skin hanging off his thin arms
His navy, not baby, blue eyes opened briefly
The light reflected off his eyes, tiny golden dots
He stretched out on his back
Arms open fingers spread, he soaked in the warmth of his mother’s arms
His whole life stretched out before him
He was young, fragile, innocent
Everything was new, fragile, wonderful
Seventeen years
He lay naked on the cold wooden dock, on the deep glacier lake
Surrounded by vast green forests
His breath came in gasps
His mouth open like a fish’s
His skin was icy cold, rigid, and red
He raised his head
The sun shone on his closed eyelids
His arms shivered uncontrollably
His skin tight on his strong arms
His navy, not baby, blue eyes opened for a moment
The sun reflected off the lake, a long golden stream
He stretched out on his back
Arms open, fingers spread, he soaked up the warmth of the summer sun
His whole life stretched out before him
He was young, restless, innocent
Everything was new, restless, wonderful
He lay naked in her arms on the soft warm sheets
Surrounded by her sweet smell
His breath came easy and slow
His mouth open like a fish’s
Her skin was soft, smooth, and pink
He lifted her head, kissed her closed eyelids
She trembled slightly
His hand on the skin of her arm
His navy, not baby, blue eyes held her for a moment
Light burned between them, a soft gentle passion
He stretched out on his back
Arms open, fingers spread, he soaked up the her warmth
Their whole life stretched out before them
They were young, dreaming, together
Everything was new, hopeful, wonderful
He lay naked in his patient gown, on the hard hospital bed
Surrounded by sobbing faces
His breath came in gasps
His mouth open like a fish’s
His skin was, clammy, wrinkled, and pale
He raised his head, the light shone on his closed eyelids
His arms trembled uncontrollably
The skin was thick on his tired arms
His navy, not baby, blue eyes opened for a moment
A light shone from his eyes, a fading golden glow
He stretched out on his back
Arms open fingers spread, he soaked up the warmth of the loved ones around him
His whole life stretched out before him
For a moment he was young, peaceful, innocent
Everything was wonderful, peaceful, finished.
Photos by DB www.connerstudio.blogspot.com
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Women of the Favela Part 3; Josette and her Grandmother
In the favelas rural and urban lifestyles often clash. In the photo above a boy, Luã, stands near the river. Behind him a herd of stray horses grazes. No one knows who brought them, but they must have been too costly to keep and were set loose. They roam the town eating out of dumpsters and blocking traffic.
Stray livestock was a common sight even in the most industrialized quarters of the city. The two other pictures show a herd loitering in front of a used car lot and two horses chomping at a garbage sack.Ironically the horses adapted better to city life than many Northerners.
Josette and Luã’s grandmother, the woman slumped in the pew, never adjusted to city life. She moved with her two grandchildren from Natal soon after Luã was born. (None of them ever told me what happened to Luã and Josette’s parents.) From the beginning their Grandma hated city life. She tried to farm but people trampled and built on her garden. She tried to keep chickens but the neighbors stole them or they fell prey to stray dogs. Over the years she gave up everything but five beehives she kept on their small patio, and the drums of animal lard she boiled down into soap. Eventually she took to watching T.V. and mumbling quietly to herself about the old days. Josette was left to keep her family afloat.
Luã would follow us as we worked in the neighborhoods. He taught me to build and fly my first kite. He always talked about his older sister, but after a month in Perus I still hadn’t met her. When she finally came to church one Sunday, she explained to me why she was never home. She was a substitute teacher. The schools in Perus are free, and a major draw for emigrants, but they are dangerous, under funded, and desperately overcrowded. (Not forty-students-in-a-single-classroom-overcrowded, like I’d seen in Utah, but too-many-students-to-fit-in-the-building-overcrowded.) The schools run in four shifts. From six to ten in the morning, then from ten to two, two to six, and finally from six to ten at night. Most teachers work two or three shifts but Josette, as often as she could, taught all four, a fourteen-hour day.
When I was in high school in Utah, the whole country reeled to see the school shootings at Columbine. In the few months I was in Perus, there were two shootings at the school, each was reported only once in the local news.
Josette’s situation was rough but hopeful. She could use her job to study, she spoke English well, and she was applying for a scholarship funded through our Church’s “Perpetual Education Fund.” As a substitute, she could also use her connections to help Luã. She could get him textbooks, notepads, pencils, even a calculator. Luã is a good boy and, like his sister, he works hard. They’ll survive. But many children in the system don’t have their advantages.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Cutter Scout Reservation 2011; Call for Staff Applications, in Haiku.
Redwoods by the Sea
Change lives including your own
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Thursday, November 4, 2010
Women of the Favela Part 2; Maria
The first day I saw the Recanto I wasn’t scared at all. The old electric train wound its way through green hills. Shantytowns lined the tracks. Shacks clumped together in the low valleys. Despite the crowded train, the incessant heat, the unfamiliar Portuguese babble all around me, I burned with excited. My first assignment in the city, just what I’d been praying for. The Recanto dos Humildes clings to the edge of Perus, a town fifty miles or so north of São Paulo. It would be wrong to call Perus a suburb, though it may have started that way. Rather, Perus is a microcosm of the city, a mini São Paulo, facing all of the major challenges of the metropolis, only on a smaller scale.
At the train station I met my new companion. (Our missionaries always work in pairs.) He came from California and had been in Perus for six weeks. He helped carry my bags and led me into the town. I followed close behind him as we tunneled through the crowed alleyways. People pushed passed us. Chickens squawked in cages and vendors shouted over each other. Above our heads, clotheslines crisscrossed from window to window. Murky, pungent water trickled over the uneven asphalt.
“We’re going to Maria’s house for lunch,” my companion told me, looking back over his shoulder. “She’s a good cook but after, we’ll have to help her husband Claudio wash his legs. Try not to stare.”
“Stare at what?” I asked but he didn’t answer. We stopped in front of a large gate. It was solid metal, ten feet tall, with spikes on top, not at all inviting. My companion clapped loudly and called,
“Maria! It’s the missionaries.”
The gate swung inward and Maria answered, her smile shining, her granddaughter in her arms. Maria was as warm and inviting as the gate was ominous.
Maria and Claudio have been members of our congregation since they trekked down from Piauí, a state in Northern Brazil. When she met me she cried. I was surprised and sorry, not knowing what I’d done. But my companion laughed, and then Maria laughed.
“Don’t worry about it Elder, (all the missionaries are called Elder) I always cry.”
“It’s true,” my companion agreed, “Everyone calls her Irmã Chorona, (Sister Cryer).”
“Yes, Irmã Chorona,” she smiled, “I always cry, but never because I’m sad.”
She told me she didn’t cry the day they left the North with all their possessions on their backs, but she cried the day they arrived in their new home. She said she didn’t cry when her husband couldn’t find work, but she cried when he bought a wheelbarrow, filled it with wildflowers to sell, and returned home with his first day’s earnings. She said she didn’t cry when her husband’s legs started to swell and crack, and he could no longer push his wheelbarrow, but she cried the day he gave up drinking and started going to church. She didn’t cry at funerals, or at hospitals, but she cried every time a new missionary came to visit.
Slowly, over black beans and rice, interrupted many times by tears, Maria told me the history of their own little metropolis.
Perus is one of many favela-towns surrounding São Paulo and provides a textbook example of the country’s social stratification. The World Bank rates Latin America as, “the most (economically) unequal region in the world, and Brazil is the most unequal country in the region.”
In most areas the slums flood over the wealthy neighborhoods. The shacks fill every open space, built up against skyscrapers, in parks, or freeway medians. But Perus provides such an interesting example because the areas of rich, poor, poorer and poorest are clearly defined and divided. The highway, the river, and the train tracks, run together for twenty miles or so, out of São Paulo. At Perus they part, dividing the town into four distinct sections. Panning the town from East to West you pass through the entire spectrum, from rich multi-storied brick houses on the hill, to tiny slanted plywood shacks on the muddy riverbank.
The rich, legitimate part of town covers the hillside east of the highway. A poorer neighborhood fills the area between the highway and the railroad tracks. From the tracks to the river the town tumbles into the old favela, a jumbled conglomerate of houses, shops, narrow alleyways and twisted roads. Beyond the river sits the Recanto.
According to Maria, the legitimate Perus was built in the 1970’s. Businessmen came, looking to get out of the city, and the highway was built to give them a speedy commute. Poor workers came as domestic servants or shopkeepers, and the government built them the railroad.
“No one built on this side of the tracks until the nineties. We were some of the first. When we got here it was a dump.”
“Literally,” my companion smiled and Maria nodded.
In fact all the land west of the tracks and east of the river was government owned and designated as a landfill. The land beyond the river belonged to an absent, and essentially faceless owner who, everyone assumed, lived in the city.
In the early nineties, slum populations in São Paulo exploded, overflowing into areas like Perus. The people carved a neighborhood right out of the landfill, building their homes with anything they could find.
“You’d be surprised what those richies throw away,” Maria says gesturing to the corrugated steel roof. “We dug this out of a mound down by the river. I insisted on real clay brick for the walls, but the Oliveiras down the alley, they built that house out of blue water barrels. Every month they cover up one or two with concrete. Whenever they can afford the cement. ”
Originally lines and pipes crossed over the tracks bringing pirated water and electricity. The Favela itself was graded from poor to poorer, with the poorest families living closest to the river.
“The river became an open sewer,” Maria said shaking her head, “drugs, violence, disease and death, they were everywhere.”
Government officials in every major city in the South faced the same dilemma. They could barely estimate how many people lived in the favelas, let alone provide for them. By 1995, Perus’ actual population was at least ten times the official head count. Half the town stole electricity and water. Children flooded the schools, and there was absolutely nowhere to send the people.
“What about the government housing?” I asked. On train rides through the city I’d seen the massive concrete apartment complexes, lined one after another like wasps nests. Called COHAB’s (co-habitation units), they must have been a massive undertaking.
“The COHAB’s,” Maria snorted. “They’re so much worse than the favelas.”
Despite the scale of the COHAB project, it fell desperately short of its goal.
“I’ve been to see them,” she went on. “My cousin lived in a COHAB for three years. Horrible, Elder, just horrible.”
She told us how large families from the North are crammed into one-room apartments. How the housing complexes breed organized crime, and are often the most dangerous parts of the city.
“People only move to the COHAB’s if they have to, if they get in trouble with the government or something. They move in, get in debt to the drug lords and the cops, and can’t leave.” She told us that many of the people in the Perus had fled the COHAB’s, often leaving behind all their possessions and bolting in the middle of the night.
“It’s true,” my companion added. “There were COHAB’s in my last area and we weren’t allowed anywhere near them after dark.”
When the COHAB’s began to fail the government tried to entice people to move back to the countryside. Brazil built a new capitol city, Brasilia, built in 1960, as an early effort to draw people into the country and away from the urban coast. In the 1990’s the government granted enormous subsidies to Northern ranchers in hopes of bolstering the agricultural economy. Today Brazil has one of the largest beef industries in the world with over190 million cattle. But cattle tycoons and foreign investors dominate the industry. The grants helped Americans get 39-cent hamburgers but gave few opportunities to farm workers. With no schools, no hospitals, no infrastructure of any kind, for families like Maria’s there was no going back North.
In the mid 1990’s, the government tried land reform; giving the favelas to their inhabitants. In Perus, they paved a few roads, built power lines, basic sewage systems, and even a primary school. The neighborhood was laid out poorly, and hastily built, but it was a neighborhood.
These land reforms, meant to ease the favela problem, only exacerbated it, causing a new major internal migration.
“At first the flow of newcomers was steady,” Maria told us, “but word reached the North that the government was giving away land. For a sharecropper or a plantation worker that’s like saying they discovered a gateway straight to heaven. The people flooded down.
“ But the government could hardly be surprised,” Maria, laughed. “The promise of free land always brings waves of people.”
These people came in the same way Europeans flooded through Ellis Island, or American pioneers pushed through the west. Many Northerners actually came to São Paulo in wagons, trailing livestock.
Maria and Claudio were both born from a long line of sharecroppers and plantation workers. São Paulo was going to be their ticket out, their “better life for their children.” For fifteen years they dug a living out of the old garbage dump. They raised their son Paulo and built a life, all on the money Claudio brought in from selling flowers. Every day for fifteen years he wheeled his barrow down to the train station, and every night he brought back beans and rice to his wife.
They succeeded. Paulo went to school, got a job in the city, married, had a daughter, and built a small brick home in the Recanto, just west of the river. But not every emigrant would succeed and as the years went by it became more and more difficult for newcomers.