John’s Beginning
John sat in the royal classroom slumped
over his desk. His professor droned on at the front of the small room. Maps covered the walls, maps of their
Empire, ancient maps of the Old World, and maps that charted the movement of
the continents over the centuries.
John was tracing the gray swirls on his desk. The desk was a gift from his father. Both his parents had given special
attention to the decoration of all his rooms. When he first began his isolation in the west wing of the
palace, the rooms had all seemed new and exciting. The side of the palace he would have all to himself seemed
enormous. Now, after six years of
living exclusively in the west wing, with no one for company but his
professors, his parents, and occasionally his twin sister Jane, it had become
dull and excruciatingly confined.
In the beginning, his mother tried to make his isolation seem special,
but for a long time John had still missed the other children.
When
Peter, John’s younger brother, entered the military academy, some of his
friends had come to the palace.
John saw them once from a balcony.
They were playing some sort of ball game; he could not capture the rules
of it. He had almost allowed himself to want to play, but he held off the
emotion. He knew his brother would
sense it, and he did not want Peter mistaking it for envy. The eldest son of the supreme monarch
could not be found, even by his brother, to envy any other position.
But that was a long time ago. Now John
was seventeen and he saw things clearly. He understood his position and did not
envy Peter’s friends. Besides, Peter was now fourteen and had been living full
time at the academy for two years.
John
was generally indifferent toward his teachers. Each had been picked by his
mother, so they were constantly bowing and praising, but none of them showed
any real interest in him. When the
Empress came on her daily visits, they would fawn over him and tell her what an
excellent pupil he was. “Destined
to be a great leader,” they would smile, “just like his mother of course.”
Destined… his destiny, his purpose, he had heard it since the day he was
born. He was the heir to the
Throne, destined to become the Supreme Monarch, the great mind and will of the
people.
John
understood his privileged position.
Their abilities made Empaths the perfect rulers. He would absorb his people’s desires,
fears, and concerns, temper them with his own education, training, and the
wisdom of his lineage, and act in a way that would benefit all his subjects. If
he failed to lead the Empire, they would fall to the rebels. The order of their society would fall
into chaos. They would degenerate
like the Kingdoms of the South. He
accepted this position and was resolved to accept all the responsibility that
came with it.
Now,
he saw the necessity of his isolation, he was young when it began, only eleven,
but his empathic capabilities had already developed. Until he had control he could not associate closely with
anyone whose emotional energy patterns would disrupt or contaminate his own.
The
desk was ugly. The swirls were
random, almost chaotic. John abhorred disorder and would have preferred plain
white. This desk looked so
unorganized. It was typical of the
things his father would pick out. The Emperor loved anything disorderly and
studied the Ancients with an almost unhealthy interest. John sometimes sensed his father
admiring the ancient days, before the great destructions, when countries where
ruled by the ever changing whims of the uneducated masses, before the Empaths
brought order to the world. John’s
mother often tried to downplay her husband’s interest in the Ancients. She told people, and herself, that it
was a hobby, that he merely thought the ancient ways were quaint and
interesting. She kept him from
talking too much about it at dinners or court balls. Still, she could not hide everything. John’s own name was of ancient origin,
as were the names of his sister Jane and his brother Peter. John did not dislike his father, though
he rarely saw him.
John
did hate his name. He traced it
out on the desk with his finger. The h was particularly annoying. It was superfluous. Sticking out of the
middle of the otherwise concise and efficient word. Jon, would have been adequate, Jonh would at least have been
symmetrical but John… It was a ridiculous name. The professor was droning on
about the political lead up to the South Pacific nuclear conflicts of the early
twenty-third century. John was
utterly bored.
A
sudden sensation of anger from the professor brought him out of his
thoughts. He looked up at the fat,
middle-aged historian. He was
angry. Though the professor smiled
calmly, John could sense the emotion.
He asked John to repeat what he had just said.
John
sat up straight and answered quickly, “The Asian Union defeated the Slavic
rebellion, with the nuclear destruction of Novgorod.”
The
professor’s anger turned to annoyance. They always hated it when he got the
answer right, especially when they thought they had caught him not listening.
“What year was that?” he asked, his annoyance showing in his voice.
John
sighed, “2394, by the ancient calendar, 1932 before present. That is what led to the first lunar
migrations, at the beginning of the twenty-fifth century.” John waited to see
if this would diffuse the annoyance or cause it to shift back to anger.
“Very
good,” the professor said, still smiling. He was angry again. John sat up straighter and asked,
“But why were the Slavs in rebellion if they were tied so economically to the
union? After all, didn’t they share the same land mass?”
“Well,”
said the professor, his anger fading as he turned back to the board and began
to outline, “the Slavs had cultural and national unity that clashed with the
integration doctrine of…” John tuned him out again but reminded himself to
watch out for further annoyance.
If his mother heard he was distracted during class she would get the
royal Empaths to suppress his curiosity again.
There
were no more outbursts. The
professor ended the lesson by assigning him to trace the lineages of the four
southern despots to see which contributed genetically to the royal line. John already knew it was Geoffrey
Leren, of the European confederation.
His mother had a picture of him on the family wall. Some suspected he was an early Empath
and that was why he was selected for the genetic conservation, and on and on.
John would have Jane write the assignment. She would be glad to help.
He
was excited to see Jane. She had
been away for a month in the country.
She had been back since that morning but she had to go through emotional
decontamination with the royal Empaths before she could see him. She would
bring him news of their father and the war.
The
class ended with his daily lesson from the propaganda instructor. The
propaganda lessons were all routine and memorized. Today’s was about the energies.
“What
is energy?” The instructor asked.
“Energy
is in everything, it is the force that holds atoms together, the gravity that
holds the universe in balance, it is light, it is heat, it is love and
happiness. The types of Energy are endless,” John answered.
“Which
energies are given to humans to control?”
“All
Humans can create and control heat energy in their bodies and kinetic energy in
their muscles. Some humans are genetically superior and able to control higher
energies, Shar, Ra and Mune. Some humans are corrupted with Syth, the
degenerate energy.”
“What
energy do you control?”
“Mune,
the greatest of all energies. The
governing energy.”
“Why
is it the greatest?”
“Because
all other energies are subordinate to it.”
“Why
do you control it?”
“It
is the natural order, energy creates its own strength, and the strong rule to
protect the weak. Nature makes
Mune, Mune makes an Empath, the Empath is ordained by Nature.
“Whom
do you rule?”
“Those
chosen by nature and infused with the Syth, the linking energy, the compliant energy. Those infused with the Syth are the
body. Empaths, with their Mune,
are the mind. It is Nature’s way.”
“And
the other’s?”
“Ra
to the Cleats, energy that can stall and freeze. Shar to the Blade Maidens,
energy that can move and strike.”
“What
is your duty as an Empath?”
“Mune
is the ruling energy, we rule the masses infused with Syth, we direct the
motion of the Blade Maiden’s Shar, and we use the Cleats’ Ra to hold the
universe in balance.”
“But
the universe is not in balance.”
“No,
the Cleats and the masses deny their place, they deny nature. They are the diseased limbs of the
body. As Empaths we must act as
the immune system, destroy the diseased part and bring the limbs back to their
natural order.”
“Which
is?”
“Under
our control.”
“Praise
to John, son of the Emperor,”
“Praise
to my instructor and gratitude,” John quickly pushed a feeling of gratitude at
the instructor, who felt it, smiled and bowed.
With
lessons over, John hurried down the stairs, unbuttoning his tight jacket and loosening
his necktie as he went. He rarely
got this excited. He decided to
let the excitement stay. Jane
would feel it and appreciate it.
He turned down the long marble hallway that led away from his training
rooms. He stopped by the door to
his study, probed inside but did not feel his sister there. She must be
outside. He stepped into the study, quickly took off his tie, vest, and jacket,
folding them neatly on the chair, then continued down the hall and entered the
gymnasium through large double doors.
The lamp over the sparing rink was still lit. They were cleaning it before tomorrow’s lesson. He did get a lot of that kid’s blood on
it last time. Really, when were
they going to let him face someone his own age?
He
went out through the double doors on the opposite side of the gym. They opened into the courtyard. The sun was low in the sky. Jane was
sitting by the side of the swimming pool.
She had not changed at all.
In fact, she looked exactly as she always did. Her hair was thick, dark, and wavy like John’s. It had grown
a little longer while she was away, but the country sun had done nothing to tan
her pale skin. She always reminded John of Snow White from the ancient
legends. She was tracing circles
in the water with her finger. She
was dressed in a white dress with silver trim, a simple dress, the kind their
mother hated. The Empress was always frustrated that Jane would not wear
extravagant gowns or jewelry.
Beside
Jane stood her two bodyguards, dressed in simple chain-mail armor. Standing next to his sister they looked
massive. They were Joined. As
punishment for some crime or rebellion their emotional energies had been
purged. Now they quite
literally lived only to serve. Any skilled Empath could transfer any desire
into their minds, and they would obey. They stared out blankly from pale faces.
Their short hair was ghostly white. A dark blue V marked their foreheads, and
there was a dark blue dot on their right temples. The whiteness was a side
effect of the drug used in the joining process, and the blue marks were burned
into their skin when their Mune was extracted. Frozen soldiers like these were a common sight around the
palace. Most of the Empire’s army
was made up of Joined.
As
John came out into the courtyard, he sensed Jane’s emotions before she noticed
him. She was nervous, hiding something she did not want to tell him. She looked up as he drew near.
“John!”
She cried energetically, coming forward and hugging him. It was something bad.
She was afraid to tell him.
“How
are you?” She asked. “Silly question, I know, I can sense that you are well,
I’m glad you’re excited to see me.”
John
decided not to ask her what she was hiding right away. She knew he could sense it and would
tell him soon. They sat down together
on the grass at the edge of the pool.
“How
was the country?” he asked.
“Oh,
fine. We rode horses on the beach. You’d have loved it. The ocean air, it makes
you feel so free, it’s like, well, I’ll show you.” She reached out her hand and touched John lightly above the
eyebrows. John was instantly
filled with a wonderful feeling of exhilaration and freedom. He could feel the wildness of the horse
and the wind blowing in his hair.
He pulled away from her touch.
“Feels
great.” He told her.
She
looked doubtful. He assured her
with a burst of gratitude.
“We
can take you there first thing when the isolation is up,” she said.
“Yeah,”
he answered quietly.
“You’re
coming along on your resistance training aren’t you?” she asked.
“Of
course,” he answered. “It’s easy.
I can block everything the royal Empaths can throw at me. I’m sure I could
resist commoners.”
“So
you’ll be ready when the test comes?”
John
looked up at the guards. He
pressed into them the desire to go to the gymnasium and wait. Without
hesitation they walked quickly and mechanically toward the gymnasium doors.
He
turned back to Jane, “I’ve been ready for the tests for months. Mother is just dragging it out. She says my combat training needs more
time, but I beat everyone they put me up against.” He let her sense his
surety. She relaxed.
“Well
soon you’ll be out of this, and we can visit the whole Empire.” She smiled
intently, pressing her excitement onto him.
“Yeah,
it’ll be great.” He let her excitement take him for a moment. “It will be
wonderful not to have to go to history classes anymore. I’ll bet Peter…” He
stopped. It was Peter. There was
something she did not want to tell him about Peter. “I bet he’ll be sick of the
academy by then.” He hurried on,
trying to cover that he sensed her apprehension. “We can all go to the country
and ride horses on the beach.”
Jane
smiled but did not answer.
“How
is Peter?” John ventured after a moment.
A faint sadness rose in his sister, but she masked it well under resolve.
“He’s
doing well at the academy. His happiness is genuine and strong, even mom can
sense it.” Jane did not respect their mother’s empathic abilities. “Only he…”
She stopped.
“Only
what?” John asked. Her sadness was rising again.
“He
is less and less sad to go back to the academy after his holidays are over.”
“There’s
something else,” John said questioningly. “Don’t try to protect me and don’t
wonder if it’s best to tell me.”
After
a moment she said softly, “He doesn’t miss you anymore.”
It
was true, but there was still more. “You are afraid to tell me the rest.” John
said simply. “Strange,” he went on, “but I’ll know when I see him.”
At
this Jane became genuinely angry.
John countered it with annoyance, followed by mild regret and then resolve. This brought her anger down, and she
did not challenge his resolve.
John was more skilled than his sister. He had much more control over his
empathic sense. Still, her energy
had always been stronger than his, her emotions much more intense. There were times when she almost
overpowered him. No one else in
the palace could affect John like Jane.
If any other person had that kind of effect on him, he would fear them,
but John could not fear Jane, and she did not envy him. She was his only real friend. She was the only one who understood
him, the only one he could joke with about his parents. The only one who saw him as John,
rather than the Ruling Prince.
They both knew they genuinely loved each other.
He
changed the subject. “How is father?”
“Good,”
she answered. “The army should be
moving again soon.”
“And
the resistance?”
“Nothing
to our armies.”
“Are
we anywhere near Kaara,”
“The
rebel stronghold? No, we’re spread
too thin across the plains, and fighting in the jungle is almost impossible.”
She
did not want to talk about the war, so John changed the subject back to the
countryside. Then she asked him
about school. They made fun of his
professors, and she told him how Lady Mullen, her governess, was getting
crabbier and crabbier. They were
old conversations. Things they
always talked about on her visits.
Still, they talked until dark.
Later
they meandered through the west wing.
John showed her new pieces of art their father had commissioned, a
painting of a quadratic expansion formula, a sculpture of two identical cubes,
and a statue of their mother.
“She
looks fat,” Jane laughed.
“I
think father paid the sculptors extra to make her look that way,” John said
smiling.
Finally,
Jane called her guards back and returned to the main part of the house. John walked alone to his room. He shut
the door, and after a few minutes, he sensed two of his own guards taking up
their post at his bedroom door.
The
room was large and nearly empty.
The walls were bare and white, the decoration simple compared to the
other richly furnished rooms in the palace. John liked it that way. Even Jane had tried to get him to
decorate more, but he insisted that he should at least be able to choose the
way his own room looked. His
mother was upset by the design.
“Like a commoner’s room,” she had
complained.
His
father had been amused at this. “I think John’s bed alone cost more than most
commoner’s homes.”
But
John loved simplicity. The world
outside his room was always full of energy and noise. He loved to sit in the dark with nothing to do, nothing to
learn or fight, no one to sense or evaluate.
He
undressed and got into bed, slipping between the smooth cool sheets. Pale moonlight came in through the
window. He wrapped himself in the
familiar sadness that was always left when Jane’s visits were over. As he lay in his bed, he let himself
feel longing, an emotion he rarely let himself feel. He was not longing for the old days, the days Jane hoped
would return when his isolation was over.
He longed for those days he could barely remember. Days before his
emphatic sense had begun to reach outward. Jane had always been connected to him, he felt her emotions
as long as he could remember, but for years she was the only one in his
head. They were alone
together.
He
longed for those days before other energies had invaded his mind, before his
mother feared him, before Peter envied him. He let these feelings flow around
him for a time. He felt remorse, sadness, even a taste of fear. He did not let it go on for long,
however. After some minutes, he
gathered the emotions together in his mind and sharply repressed them. They disappeared instantly. John smiled
at this. Repression was the first
technique he had learned as part of his resistance training, and he was pleased
to see that it worked so well on such strong emotions. It meant his isolation would soon be
over. He put his hands under his
head and gazed up at the ceiling.
His whole life stretched out before him.
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